Nicole Cameron, Independent Licensed Ishtara Teacher
I am a seeker. I am a woman. I am a wife. I am a sister. I am an aunt. I am a coach. I am a guide. I am a dancer.
As a little girl, I often thought “why am I here?”. This statement gave me the most uneasy feeling, but I continued to ask and seek as much as a 4-year-old could. I learned to escape into my brain with questions of who am I, why are any of us here …why?
Safety was inside me while my family began to erupt around me. I created an invisible friend who I named appropriately “Little Girl” and I cared for her during the eruption. She allowed me to escape deep into my body for safety and love. I loved being in this space – in my body. We danced, we sang, we played in the sandbox and smelled the lilacs blooming. But inside the house, there was sadness, fear, anger, and trauma.
Soon the family unit was completely dismantled. A new smaller family was born, and I reinvented myself. Then that family dismantled, and I had to reinvent myself again into two different family units. In this journey, I lost myself, my body, and my brain. I survived, but I lost Her – that beautiful body. That place of deep safety and love.
Summer of 2022, Ishtara kept flashing before me. My beautiful friend, Amy, an Ishtara Teacher, shared these beautiful striking posts that lured me in. My body was activated and quickly attached to herself – wanting to know more, feeling the need for more. By December, she had me enrolled. My beautiful brain couldn’t catch up, but my body knew, she was remembering.
This remembering brought me back to that sweet spot as a little girl in my body, playing, dancing, loving, singing, and smelling the lilacs blooming. It was a home coming. This homecoming allowed me to admit that I was struggling in my body with perimenopause, sadness, fear, and anger. Trauma of abandonment, divorce, death, miscarriage, and addiction. I was seeking and longing for healing.
Class by class, practice by practice, dance by dance revealed the importance of self-compassion, self-acceptance, and the healing that lies within all of us. My Ishtara journey is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the ability to find healing and freedom, even in the face of challenging life experiences.
Finally, I know why I’m here…. I’m here to share, to teach, to guide, to hold, to devote and to love.
Thank you for welcoming me home Ishtara, I’m honored. I’m also honored to dance with everyone who feels the call to join me in the evolving journey of remembering who you came here to be.